My body feels like I was kicked in the gut.
Everything just feels tight. My heart is racing. My knees are weak.
My legs feel like they are trudging through water. Everything is in slow motion.
I am working so hard to move forward in the positive, to show my kids that we are ok. I just fall apart when no one is watching.
He broke my heart.
He broke Logan's heart.
He broke Ava's heart.
He broke Beckett's heart.
I want to scream and yell and crawl into a hole.
I dont have the time to give into it.
I keep going. I keep moving forward. I keep making it ok. I keep holding my children tight. I keep breathing. I keep knowing that this will get harder before it gets better. Nothing will ever be the same.
I just have to keep showing them that we are ok...
It will all be ok and you WILL be ok, someday, because you know what? In the end, he loses, not you. You have the three most important people in the world with you and that counts for everything.
ReplyDeleteI know we don't know eachother, but you and your children have been in my thoughts and I am praying for you.
Xoxo,
Kate