when you feel real shitty, you better look real pretty

I am trying so hard to be the person I want to be.

Its so hard to be that person when your world is falling in on you.  Everyone around me has their own ideas, advice, concerns and hurt.  I feel so overwhelmed with everyone else's emotions.

I wake up.

I move forward.

I take a deep breath and move forward. 

I put my makeup on.

I make myself feel as pretty as I can and hope that I feel better.

I dance in the car and belly laugh with my friends. 

I wrap the scarf Ava made me for mothers day around my hair.

I smile...