I felt sad today or lonely or both.
We have amazing friends as a family!
We also have amazing friends with amazing pools!
These amazing friends with amazing pools invite my amazing poole's over to their amazing pools!
We were invited to go to a friends pool with the entire family. First we went to the community pool with a fancy water slide and then we went to their home that has an eight foot waterfall that the kids love to jump off. It's also salt water so its easy on the skin and eyes. We all had so much fun. Logan figured out how to jump off the waterfall into an inner tube. He was so excited. Ava just giggled her little heart away with one of her best friends. Beckett is starting swim lessons this week so he was attached to my hip. He kept jumping off the little waterfall, the side of the pool or anything else. He then jumped at me knee first into my nose. I couldn't talk. I was trying not to cry. I was trying not to cry all day.
I watched them play and laugh and it made me sad.
I felt lonely that I didn't have someone to share it with.
It then made me sad because I realized that he wouldn't of been there before he left.
I have been lonely for a long time.
Hi, I have been following you on IG for a bit now ( I think I may have come across your IG page from seeing it on the popular page or something). You don't know me at all and I've been thinking of responding but felt a bit awkward in posting something to you. Anyhow, I just wanted to say that For some reason I feel like I can relate to you, although I have never been married and do not have any children, I feel like you are handling your life with quite a bit of dignity and grace. I think that you being so honest with your life and circumstance and sometimes just feeling helpless and alone shows your dignity and gracefulness bc you always seem to just let yourself have that moment and then continue on. You seem to fall down but always manage to pick yourself off and dust yourself off. I think that so many times we all lie to ourselves and don't allow ourselves to have that moment I despair. But, I think you show your gracefulness by the effort that you are putting in to keep moving onward and upward (even I it may not feel that way). Anyway, you don't know me at all but I just felt the need to express that to you. I really do hope that things work out for you and I really feel that they will bc of how apparent it is that you are working so hard. Ok, I'm done. Good luck to you...but I somehow think you don't need it (you sound very resilient even though you may not feel that way. Stay buoyant.
ReplyDeletetifftastic, its taken me a while to respond. I just want to say thank you. I read this on a dy i really needed it. I am trying hard to allow and honor all of our emotions. The good and the bad.
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